ended up being UNABLE to speak in situations like that, even though I was thinking right then and there that I really, really wanted to say something. BUT I COULDN'T. Really. It was like tape was over my mouth - I was physically unable to speak.

This is me. I don't know where it came from for me, but I completely shut down when someone hurts me or angers me. It's always been a self-protection to look like nothing affects me.