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serai ([personal profile] serai) wrote2016-01-11 12:18 pm

And the Thin White Duke strides away into the night...

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Jesus. I really don't know how to feel about this. He was so enormous, unique. It's not sadness I'm feeling - it's emptiness. He's not leaving sorrow, he's leaving a hole. A hole in the center of things, at the edge of things, in the eye of things. In the way we see things. No, in the way things are seen. He created a way to see things that no one else had before, and now that lens is capped, and things will not be seen that way again. Other ways, yes, but not the way he saw them. It was never the makeup, or the swagger, or the knife-edge balancing act of his persona, or the songs even - it was the way he saw things. That's what made it possible for him to rope together all the arts and disciplines he did, and make a life that was in itself a work of art.





It was that life in total that was the thing, not any one component. He wedded life and art and found the way to make them dance together. I am a DJ, I am what I play, he sang, and he was right. For the world, he was what he played, what he played at, what he played with. He played with the world, turned it into a weird, fantastical jungle gym that he climbed on, up, around, endlessly rearranging the bars to move the dance along.





He was sharp, too. His humor was pointed, observant, nasty, and he used his art and his stature and his stance as a slightly alien being to drive that humor home. To drive that knife in. Listen to me, don't listen to me. Talk to me, don't talk to me. Dance with me, don't dance with me. No... Beep beep! He reveled in artifice - in some ways he was the ultimate Artificial Being - but he played with that fantasy, made it reality, then made it a fantasy again, taking it with deadly seriousness while he was laughing hysterically. That constant uncertainty, that duality, made him the human embodiment of Schroedinger's Cat, in a way - he was never one thing or the other, but both and neither simultaneously.





He played with history, too. Even his own stories were fair game. The shrieking of nothing is killing me... Time and again I tell myself, I'll stay clean tonight... I've never done good things, I've never done bad things... The hero Major Tom falls to earth hard, his fame driving deep into darkness, depression, addiction. He falls into a field of stars he cannot escape, up into a space that traps him, slowly killing him. Want an ax to break the ice, wanna come down right now. The beauty of the world can lift us into heaven, but it can also rot and kill us. There is no certainty, only change, fluidity, the cycle. Change or be left in the darkness.





Fake or real? Is there a difference? Does it even matter? All of life is a fake, a construction, something made up between creatures who think they know what the world is. But we don't know, not really. All we have is our stories to keep us afloat, to give the time meaning, to keep time in existence at all. Every pair of eyes is different, every gaze changes the world, nothing is the same ever, anywhere. Strange fascinations fascinate me... Time may change me, but I can't trace time. Fluid, moving, changing. We think we're on solid ground, we think we know the world, but ultimately we know nothing. His art celebrated Socrates in its way, acknowledging that the best wisdom is to acknowledge the absence of certainty, to keep questioning, keep searching, keep moving. To move is to live... until one stops moving. And even then, we keep moving, onward, into something we cannot see or understand.





But it doesn't matter, does it? Because we're here, right now. The water flows around us, we swim, we dance, we change. Life is a dance, a song, a painting, a living sculpture. An alien thing, fallen to earth from the stars, breaking open and covering the planet with a net of seeming infinity, always changing, climbing, dancing, joining, separating, rising, waking, looking up, rising up, falling, falling, dying and rising again. Moving towards the light, falling towards the darkness. Life, grand, bright, ridiculous, spinning, exploding, artful, chaotic, heroic, seemingly endless... until it ends. We can be heroes, just for one day.

Just for one day. That's the message. Just for one day.

RIP, strange and beautiful prince. I'll keep my radio tuned to the stars. Now you'll be the one calling us from beyond...





The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don't go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don't go back to sleep.
People are passing back and forth
through the doorway where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.

Don't go back to sleep.

-- Rumi


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[personal profile] shirebound 2016-01-11 08:43 pm (UTC)(link)
What a beautiful, lyrical, heartfelt tribute. I just love that first picture.

both and neither simultaneously

Oh yes.
Edited 2016-01-11 20:44 (UTC)

[identity profile] serai1.livejournal.com 2016-01-11 09:06 pm (UTC)(link)
He was glorious, indeed.

Thanks for the compliment. Feel free to pimp if you like. :)

[identity profile] mews1945.livejournal.com 2016-01-11 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
This is lovely. He really was a mystery, and he kept reinventing himself in ways we'd never seen before. We'll not see his like again.

[identity profile] serai1.livejournal.com 2016-01-11 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
He was and we won't. I think because we can't - Bowie was one of a crowd of talented people who came up in the late 20th century, during a time of flux and transition between media that was simultaneously a time of limited media and limited connection. Thus it was possible for one voice to become huge, to captivate people with that kind of range and power. Media has now become fractured, every voice its own station, and I don't think it's possible anymore for someone to have the kind of overarching influence Bowie had.

[identity profile] addie71.livejournal.com 2016-01-11 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
What a beautiful, thoughtful and moving tribute. He's not leaving sorrow, he's leaving a hole. ~ I couldn't agree more.

[identity profile] serai1.livejournal.com 2016-01-12 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. He's always been such a fascinating, puzzling artist to me. Honestly, I can't really describe it as a loss since I never saw him as belonging to any of us. He belonged to himself, utterly and absolutely, so his art and his talent were only ever lent to us, but the gift was his. We just got to watch.
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[identity profile] claudia603.livejournal.com 2016-01-12 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
Really awesome tribute!

And there's something about that Rumi quote that really touches me deeply..

[identity profile] serai1.livejournal.com 2016-01-12 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks! The Rumi poem is the one I used to close all my storytelling shows with.

[identity profile] mollyringle.livejournal.com 2016-01-12 05:19 am (UTC)(link)
Dude, that was gorgeous. Thank you for composing all that. It's hard for me to comprehend a world without Bowie. He honestly had an immortal sort of feel, more than just about any celebrity I can think of. Still, even though he turned out to be mortal, his otherworldiness has inspired and will keep on inspiring millions of people. Probably more. And why stop at Earthlings? Surely other worlds too.

[identity profile] lijahlover.livejournal.com 2016-01-12 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
What a wonderful tribute to one amazing and wonderful man.

[identity profile] serai1.livejournal.com 2016-01-12 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks! Would you believe I actually started with I don't know what to say. It got clear pretty quick that in fact, I did, lol.

A world without Bowie. I'm having that feeling more and more as time goes on - that feeling of "how can there be a world without ----- ?" I felt the same when Leonard Nimoy died: a world without Spock? Now Bowie. When someone who is so formative to your worldview dies, a part of the world you see with the eyes that person gave you also dies. And yet the world goes on, as it will when we die. That's just how life is.

Still sucks, though.

[identity profile] serai1.livejournal.com 2016-01-12 08:34 am (UTC)(link)
*bows*

And an inspiring one!

[identity profile] aliensouldream.livejournal.com 2016-02-05 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
What a beautiful tribute. You put it so eloquently. That uniqueness and energy,evolving like life itself. There's some quote from Freak the Mighty like 'If someone so great once once, someone so great will always be'. Let's hope so.