OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD, I cannot tell you how amazing this is!!! There are stories that can make my heart thump, can literally make me shake, and this was happening from the first few lines because I knew that something important was coming. When it goes from Zeke's superficial life to his dawning knowledge of the past, it was brilliantly done. You can feel his world breaking apart from the inside, and the pain of loss just hits him like it's new. And the two of them ... I can't use ordinary words like heat and sexy because this was in a different level, it was stunning, beautiful, heartbreaking and absolutely vivid. I was there, scared to breathe in case I disturbed them. The ache of loss, the grief and pain, just HURT so damn much. You are an amazing writer and I despise myself for not having got back here sooner to give comments. As someone who is basically owned by loving CZ, a story of sad, twisting gorgeousness like this is a very wonderful thing. I hope you link us all to any CZ you wrote before and I hope you continue to write more and more. I also hope you are sharing this on AO3, Tumblr and the world as everyone needs to be reminded of how fantastically amazing CZ is. This is going in favourites and after I've read it a few dozen times I'll be harrassing you for more. Thank you!!XXXX