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Monday, August 10th, 2015 06:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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I'm taking a couple of days to put up my archive at AO3. What will happen after that, I don't know.
I haven't eaten at all today. I have no appetite. Been crying a lot.
Don't leave me, don't leave me, please.
I need you, I need you, I need you, I need you.
Don't go, please don't go. Please?
I'm taking a couple of days to put up my archive at AO3. What will happen after that, I don't know.
I haven't eaten at all today. I have no appetite. Been crying a lot.
Don't leave me, don't leave me, please.
I need you, I need you, I need you, I need you.
Don't go, please don't go. Please?
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Date: Tuesday, August 11th, 2015 02:16 am (UTC)They'll come back, love, they're not going to abandon you. (Expect a proper reply elsewhere, shortly -- I've only just managed to get onto my computer for the evening.)
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Date: Tuesday, August 11th, 2015 04:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Wednesday, August 12th, 2015 01:25 am (UTC)I don't know if the situation between them is ever going to come up in a way that requires explanation. I can't really see it happening from here, but who the fuck knows. The fact that she appeared at all was a complete surprise in the first place. I'd really like to know about his father, myself. (I get the sense that his stepfather is kind of an asshole, though.)
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Date: Wednesday, August 12th, 2015 05:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Wednesday, August 12th, 2015 06:19 pm (UTC)He is opening up again a little bit, and like I said, I'm finding he loves his mother deeply, but he does hate his stepfather, so now I'm wondering if he isn't the cause of Zeke's solitude, and not his mother. Zeke is illegitimate, after all, so it would make sense - most men wouldn't want to have the child of an affair in the house with them. So that means also that Zeke's mother is torn and in pain about the whole thing, which is something I was trying to convey without having this new wrinkle to make the writing clearer. Those two pieces weren't about the past, but about its influence now. I get that it doesn't come across as well as I'd like, but I don't know how to make it plainer within the confines of where the story is going, without larding the stories with details that aren't asking to be included, maybe yet, maybe never.
Now I'm seeing why chapter fics never happened for me before. This shit is far more complicated than I had anticipated, and somehow I find it easier to hear people misinterpreting a one-off than this thing, which is longer and has parts that I hope will fit together well. I don't know why that is. Perhaps it's because once a thing is done, it's done - I know what it means to me, and if others don't understand it, well whatever. More likely it's just the delicate house-of-cards nature of my writing, where one wrong word at the wrong moment will derail it. ARGH FUCKING ARGH.