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So, still wrestling with Zeke about that chapter - it's slow in coming. I'm getting a tad impatient with this idea of holding chapters back, frankly, because I keep getting little flashes of ideas that could become full chapters, but am losing the impetus because that makes it look like it's going to take longer to write this thing than I thought, and I've discovered I'm crap at continuing without outside encouragement. So I've decided to start posting stuff I already have written, at least the parts that aren't already marked for inclusion at a specific point. This thing is pretty tumbled and jumbled in its structure anyway, and having them pile up is starting to interfere with my sense of how to release them. So what the hell.

One thing I've been concerned with is placement in the timeline. Since the chapters do bounce back and forth time-wise, I've been trying to write in details or mentions that clarify when the bits are happening (weather being the most obvious way to do it since Ohio is a part of the country that has pronounced seasonal changes). But I'm wondering if it's a strain to try and guess the time placement as a reader. Opinions? I'm thinking I should just include a month/year indicator at the beginning of each chapter to make things easier. It wouldn't bother me to do so. It just hadn't occurred to me before. What do you guys think?



P.S. I do want to give a shout-out and OMG THANKS to danae_b and aliensouldream, who've done some pre-reading and given me pats before posting some of what's gone up (and what's coming). It's really helped to make sure I'm not stepping on my own toes or writing anything completely WTFRUDOING?? Love and hugs!

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I have an interesting little problem which I'd like to get opinions on, if people have anything to say. This is especially germane for anyone who's got stuff posted on AO3 or other big sites.

LOTR was not the first fandom I wrote in. For a couple of years before that, I was writing in the Keanu fandom. It was all het, mostly character-based but some RPF. (In the Keanu fandom, it was basically ALL wish fulfillment fantasy, so nobody cared about that whole Mary Sue business. All that mattered was that it was good, whatever it was.) The gals reading my stuff did like it a lot, and I had a lot of fun with it.

(Side note: When I talk about My Muse? Keanu is the default. He dresses up as different guys - the latest one is obvious to all of you, I'm thinking - but in between times, when whatever obsession I've got fades off, He goes back to being that pretty half-breed Dorian Gray figure, with the down-pillow voice and restless hands and utterly spectacular smile. (Seriously, you have no idea of the wattage. It's a "you gotta be there" thing. It's blinding.) Before Keanu came along, it had been nearly ten years since I had crushed on a guy, so he kinda reset my clock, I guess. Regardless, when my Muse wanders back in after a dry time, that is the outfit he's wearing. Just FYI.)

So I've got this cache of stuff I wrote which is nowhere else on the web. Originally it went out through a Yahoo group that's defunct, then a few pieces went up here and there at friends' sites, which are also all gone now. So I'm thinking I'd like to post the stuff.

The question is how.

I'm very fond of these pieces. I think they're hot - they certainly got me off, they got other people off, and rereading some of them, I still get off on them. I think the ones that I would post (because I wouldn't post them all, oh no way, some are way too personal) would be enjoyable for anyone looking for that stuff. The thing is, I don't know if I want to embrace that earlier identity, to connect it with the handle I have now. I have no idea why I balk at this because frankly, who gives a shit? I really shouldn't think it's important, but somehow it is.

But then I think of the people I liked in that fandom, and how cool it would be if one of them was still around in it and bumped up against my stories. I think of how terribly much I miss Cat, and how great Shell's sci-fi porn was, and how comforting Chrys was when Nyquil went after me, and how Red and I would bounce bits of our MAAN fics at each other, and I get sad at how we lose each other, you know?

So I'm in a quandary here. Should I post them and risk having my handle connected with what would likely be seen as Mary Sue nonsense? Or should I keep them back to myself and risk losing the tiny chance of reconnection? It's not a life-changing decision, but it's something that's been hanging there for some time now.

Because I really do like those stories.

Any thoughts?