*sigh*

[serai]

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So now the piss off has worn off, and I'm just sad and depressed. It's hot as hell here (thought not at the moment because it's, you know, night), I'm facing another summer of trying to get around to doctors and therapists on the bus during another broiling three months, I have no prospects for work, I'm tired and sad and I just fucking don't care. Goddmmit, every blow like this just drives me deeper down. I used to want to get out into the world, but as time goes by, I feel myself sinking deeper and deeper. The good moments get fewer, I have no friends to hang out with, nothing interests me. And now I'm afraid even my story may be abandoning me - this thing has just sucked the will to write right out of me.

I should never have moved back to L.A. That was the biggest mistake I ever made. I'll never get out of here. I'll never have a life again.

I want out.

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Comments

[addie71.livejournal.com]

I hope you find a way to get out. *gentle hugs*

[ink-gypsy.livejournal.com]

I can't say I know exactly how you're feeling, but I'm in a similar situation. I have no local friends, so the internet is my lifeline to the world. And my writing, which was my only comfort, seems to have deserted me, so I'm extremely down about life. All I can say is, things are bound to get better, so please, hang on.

[shirebound]

I wish I knew what to say, my friend. I know it's been very tough for you. So many of us wish we could go back and un-do or re-do a decision.

[danae_b]

I really wish we lived closer.  *hugs*

[aliensouldream.livejournal.com]

Oh love, I'm sorry you feel sad. I wish there was good things coming up to make you feel better. The story is a beautiful gift. It will come back to you, I feel sure of it. Summer is always meant to make us happy but it can feel like a sluggish time, extra tired and yet always waiting for something. I so hope that lovely things start to happen again in fandom and right around you. You have us friends to hang with here and we love you xxxx

[biting-moopie.livejournal.com]

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Moving to a new place, or back to an old one, is one of those decisions where you won't know whether it's the right thing or not until you do it. And if it's the wrong decision, well. Basically, I know how you feel. Wish I had words to help, but nothing is coming to mind. If you need to talk, I'm here. <3